I am right now facing the loss, the ash, the dust. My writing desk, my books, all into storage, my daughter's bed and the piano I gave her into the home of my x. The strangest thing, the buyers defaulted on Monday and their lies have surfaced, pretending to be what they are not. Still we wait. I still believe God will save our home, the home I called "God's Home". That He will give me one more chance to dedicate it to Him, all the while living in total surrender.
This is such beautiful writing & so meaningful. It made me smile you starting your post from an extract from Wind in the Willows, I'm reading The Gospel in the Willows at the moment.
Thank you Gideon for your wonderful work, it is so refreshing x
Oh, so much of what you write resonates with me. Thank you
10 years ago was my unwanted divorce and leaving a home that I hoped to grow old in ā big maple trees, perfect kitchen, near a beautiful lake in Montana. Making a new life now in Southern California in an apartment, but itās really good. So many people who I love and who love me and satisfying work.
God was with me through the pain of separation and divorce and rending, and heās with me now.
May God continue to renew and heal you and give you hope.
Thank you so much for sharing this. Personal journeys are so important and relatable. Iām so happy for you. Somehow after around 10 years I too am finding the impossible Spring returning. It is dazzling. Thank you for having all the right words to express these deep things xx
"And while I am far from healed, I can perhaps imagine healing." This sums up the journey of Lent in a beautiful way. Blessings to you and your new home, friend.
I am truly happy for you, a soul Iāve never met. But I think Iām happier for the evidence of pilgrimās return that you embody. I stand earlier in that circle, at risk of losing home, andāpossiblyāmany of the layers which āhomeā seems to hold together. This may happen soon, or we may find a way to keep it all together for a while. Your own greening after long freeze reminds me of the possibility of my own, whatever may come.
Dear Gideon, I am so sorry you have been in such a difficult situation. My heart goes out to you, and I am grateful for your honesty and your eloquence. Your new home looks (and sounds) so beautiful and the next chapter begins. Thank you for blessing us with your words. I return to your books and this Substack often and I never fail to appreciate them. God bless.
Thank you, yet again, Gideon for sharing this deeply personal experience. I have recently lived through a very similar life change and not of my own choosing. My home, which I had rented for 17 years has been sold together with the old mill where it had been used as the clocking-in office for the workers in the adjoining walking stick mill. I loved living in a slightly wild and off the beaten track site and believed I was leaving my slowly healing solitude behind. I have been in my new home for exactly one month and slowly emerging from the sloth of feeling āpoor old meā, Mother Natureās miracles are happening here too. Why hadnāt I focussed on that? šš»
Gideon! The new Green Chapel HQ are absolutely enchanting!! āØ I hope you are finding more and more reasons to laugh, to hope and to dream again. x Charissa
Thank you for sharing! This writing is so beautiful- I caught myself holding my breath.
Also I had a passing thought - if such beautiful writing exists, who I am to even write anything? And yet I find the will to write becomes stronger and stronger.
I am right now facing the loss, the ash, the dust. My writing desk, my books, all into storage, my daughter's bed and the piano I gave her into the home of my x. The strangest thing, the buyers defaulted on Monday and their lies have surfaced, pretending to be what they are not. Still we wait. I still believe God will save our home, the home I called "God's Home". That He will give me one more chance to dedicate it to Him, all the while living in total surrender.
This was a balm for my soul in a season when Iām enduring an internal winter. š¤
This is such beautiful writing & so meaningful. It made me smile you starting your post from an extract from Wind in the Willows, I'm reading The Gospel in the Willows at the moment.
Thank you Gideon for your wonderful work, it is so refreshing x
What a lovely view! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and reflections, for your ārealnessā and honesty.
Beautiful, Gideon. š§”
Oh, so much of what you write resonates with me. Thank you
10 years ago was my unwanted divorce and leaving a home that I hoped to grow old in ā big maple trees, perfect kitchen, near a beautiful lake in Montana. Making a new life now in Southern California in an apartment, but itās really good. So many people who I love and who love me and satisfying work.
God was with me through the pain of separation and divorce and rending, and heās with me now.
May God continue to renew and heal you and give you hope.
šš»
As ever, this post arrived at a key time. So glad to hear about your home. Thank you for your words.
Thank you so much for sharing this. Personal journeys are so important and relatable. Iām so happy for you. Somehow after around 10 years I too am finding the impossible Spring returning. It is dazzling. Thank you for having all the right words to express these deep things xx
"And while I am far from healed, I can perhaps imagine healing." This sums up the journey of Lent in a beautiful way. Blessings to you and your new home, friend.
I am truly happy for you, a soul Iāve never met. But I think Iām happier for the evidence of pilgrimās return that you embody. I stand earlier in that circle, at risk of losing home, andāpossiblyāmany of the layers which āhomeā seems to hold together. This may happen soon, or we may find a way to keep it all together for a while. Your own greening after long freeze reminds me of the possibility of my own, whatever may come.
Dear Gideon, I am so sorry you have been in such a difficult situation. My heart goes out to you, and I am grateful for your honesty and your eloquence. Your new home looks (and sounds) so beautiful and the next chapter begins. Thank you for blessing us with your words. I return to your books and this Substack often and I never fail to appreciate them. God bless.
Thank you, yet again, Gideon for sharing this deeply personal experience. I have recently lived through a very similar life change and not of my own choosing. My home, which I had rented for 17 years has been sold together with the old mill where it had been used as the clocking-in office for the workers in the adjoining walking stick mill. I loved living in a slightly wild and off the beaten track site and believed I was leaving my slowly healing solitude behind. I have been in my new home for exactly one month and slowly emerging from the sloth of feeling āpoor old meā, Mother Natureās miracles are happening here too. Why hadnāt I focussed on that? šš»
Gideon! The new Green Chapel HQ are absolutely enchanting!! āØ I hope you are finding more and more reasons to laugh, to hope and to dream again. x Charissa
Thank you for sharing! This writing is so beautiful- I caught myself holding my breath.
Also I had a passing thought - if such beautiful writing exists, who I am to even write anything? And yet I find the will to write becomes stronger and stronger.
Beauty- and meaningful. I hope your life will return to fertile soil!
oh my heart š sending heart hugs š¤